TWENTY NINE YEARS OLD

This is the birthday reflection of my Brother Kiet, (SSS Scholastic Seminarian, under the Vietnamese Province), enjoy reading and be inspired with his reflection – Lk 12:54-59.

Heraclitus is an ancient Greek Philosopher. There is a famous word tospecial moment characterize his thought about the fundamental essence of the universe that “no man ever steps in the same river twice.” For him, every thing flows; everything changes and nothing remains still; so everything is always new. Today is my birthday – the 29th anniversary. Twenty nine anniversaries are different from each other along with various situations, even myself main person in the anniversary is different too. This birthday likewise is the second time I celebrate in Philippines.

Many people say that ending of year is the special moment for looking back themselves about all things happened in the life during whole year. Through this, they recognize what they did – good or bad; successful or unsuccessful so that they will learn from experience; then they plan for the coming year and attempt to gain many good things. This is not wrong. For my own opinion, however, the birthday is a special moment as well in which I examine myself. I recognize I am growing up day by day about physical and mental aspects. And I know that the life is so wonderful. There were joys and sorrows, happiness and sadness happened in the last whole year. Each day passed with each lesson I learned. 365 days are 365 lessons. I see I am so small in this world as a drop of water in the ocean or a grain of sand in the desert. I am nothing to be proud of myself. I don’t know what will happen to me or what is waiting for me tomorrow. Maybe today I am good, I am holy but tomorrow I will be bad, will be sinful; or maybe today I am bad, I am sinful but tomorrow I will be good, will be holy. Saint Augustine said, ‘there is no saint without a past, no sinner without a future’. This word is so meaningful and gives me much more hopefulness. I just know that I must always be humble and keep in prayer.

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In the Gospel today, the Jews are proud of predicting weather conditions just looking at the skies. Even they do not know about science and technology, they can tell when rain is coming or when a hot day is to be expected. But this talent of observation seems to fail them when the events concerning Jesus and their own salvations are in question. They do not have problem to examine the signs of their times. But Jesus sees through their inability. He calls them hypocrites – they perceive and know the meaning of signs of Jesus such as preaching, miracles, and proclamation of kingdom of God but they pretend not to understand them because they do not want to make a decision. They do not accept Jesus as the Messiah of God. They refuse to be converted and reject the gospel and its values. Besides that, Jesus gives people a way to resolve their conflicts among themselves. It is better to make agreeable settlement than to go to court. In the court cases, their situation is getting worse and worse. It also means to tell us that we have to be reconciled with God before we die, before the judgment day; but we do not know when God calls us to depart from the earth, so we need to be reunited with God always. Happily in the Eucharist, we celebrate the mystery of love, of forgiveness and of reconciliation. Originating in One Bread, One Body we are reconciled with God; moreover we are also settled any conflict each other. Amen. (October 23, 2015, Friday)

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HAYAY BUHAY…

Marami na akong na encounter na mga tao na ibat iba ang pagtingin at paraan ng pagpaahalaga sa buhay.

Si Joebel, ang namatay na ka batch namin. Nuong araw, bumubuo kami ng mga pangarap na magsasabay sabay na maging pari. Namatay sya sa sakit na kidney failure, tatlong taon na ang nakakaraan, nilabanan ang sakit upang humaba ang buhay.

Si Ate L, nalulungkot at naiiyak na lang sya sa sobrang takot dahil ang dalawang kasabayan nya sa dialysis ay wala na. Natatakot sya na baka sya na daw ang sumunod. Gusto pa niyang mabuhay.

Si Francis, ang isa sa mga naging estudyante ko, isang matapang at makulit na bata, tatlong taon na ang nakakaraan natagpuan na lang sya ng kanyang lola at mama nya na nakabigti sa kanilang bahay sa Tayuman, Maynila. Winakasan nya ang sariling buhay.

Si Mang Ricardo, driber ng van na byaheng pa Manaoag to Baguio, nakakuwentuhan ko kanina sa byahe, may walong anak, ang misis ay nasa bahay lang, at umaasa lahat sila sa kikitain nya sa pagda drive, ito ang sa kanila ay bumubuhay, si Mang Ricardo kumakayod sa buhay.

Si Br. Richie Fernando, seminaristang Jesuit, na assigned sa Cambodia. Naglaan ng buhay.

Marami pa itong mga kwentong ganito, iba iba ang kwento ng buhay iba ibang pamamaraan ng pagharap sa buhay.

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Buhay nga naman parang life ika nga…

Tuwing sumasapit ang ating kaarawan, tayo ay nahaharap na balikan ang isang taong lumipas, tignan kung paanong ang ating buhay ay naging makabuluhan.

At ngayong araw na ito, nagdiriwang ako ng aking ika 36 na kaarawan, panibagong regalong buhay, sa mga nakalipas na araw, talaga yatang laging dumarating sa akin ang tinatawag na birthday syndrome, itong umaga, pumunta ako ng Baguio, namalagi ako sa Pink Sisters, nagdasal, at inubos ang buong umaga ko duon, pag sumasapit ang birthday ko, mas gusto kong napag iisa, dahil mas nakakapag isip ako, at nakikita ko ang maraming biyaya ng Diyos sa akin.

Sa nakalipas na isang taon, tunay na mabiyaya, naka graduate ako sa Theology, nakapag perpetual profession ako at na ordained akong deacon, maraming pagsubok – pero mabiyaya, maraming kalungkutan – pero mas lamang ang kasiyahan, maraming palpak na mga desisyon ko – pero alam kong pangatawanan, maraming kabiguan – pero ako ay nagtagumpay.

Ang birthday ay nagtuturo sa atin kung paano muling isilang, ang pag alala sa ating kapanganakan ay pag alala kung paano magsimula.  Kahit na ano pa man ang nangyari kanina, kahapon, nuong nakaraang buwan at taon, ang mahalaga ay magsisimula kapag nadapa, nagkamali, nasaktan sa buhay.  Huwag hihintong muling sumubok, maniwala at umasa.

Sa nakalipas na 36 na taon sa buhay ko, masasabi kong marami akong dapat ipagpasalamat sa Diyos, samahan ninyo ako at turuan na mas magbahagi pa ng aking buhay sa inyo.

Ang aking dasal ang inaasam kong naway ang makita ng Diyos ang batang Kanyang minahal, inaruga sa loob ng 36 na taon ay namumuhay sa kagustuhan Niya.

Marahil, hindi lang tuwing sasapit  ang ating kaarawan tayo ay tumingin sa paraan kung paano tayo mamuhay, maaring maging si Joebel, Ate L, Francis, Mang Ricardo at si Richie ang buhay natin, ang tanong na lang ay alin ang pipiliin natin at gagawing inspirasyon sa mga buhay nila.

At makikita natin ang kahalagahan ng buhay kapag tayo na mismo ang nawalan, tayo na mismo ang nagbigay, tayo na mismo ang humandusay – handog buhay para sa iba.

Sana rin tignan natin si Kristo sa banal na Eukaristiya, na buong buo na nag alay ng kanyang sarili sa ating lahat.

Gawin nating makubuluhan ang ating buhay, hindi pa huli ang lahat…